Is it time? Is it contemplation time?

I cant seem to find that motivation that i had to push me to do my best.
Where have you gone?

my memory's worsening. i cant even remember much about school this morning.i dont know what date it is, nor can i recall my upcoming plans. SHIT.

i hope this daily blogging will help me in some way for next weeks english N's. i barely even passed for prelims. SHIT.

i want to talk about pride
pride is something that everyone has
pride makes you defiant
pride makes you unwilling to cooperate
pride makes you stand on other peoples heads, not on the ground
pride makes others despise you, but you still hold it high
pride makes you deaf
pride makes you blind

is it hard putting yourself below others? isnt that what we are taught to do? "serve" others?
but how do we serve if we still have our pride on our shoulders?

i think theres a right time and a right place where you can be proud, and when not to be.

everything revolves around wisdom, decisions, knowing whats right and whats wrong, choosing right from wrong.

So its best to know when to hold your head up high, and when to brush off the dirt of other's shoes.