Ignition! i believe not.

N's officially over. no more "you gotta study" at the back of my head. got loads of things planned for these holidays. lets start off nice and slow and tackle the events that are exciting me right now(the supposetly keeping me awake ones).

Well, jammings tomorrow and i havent jammed for more than a month. quite stoked about it. intending to get things done with the band for these holidays. all out sorta thing. quite stoked about the gig in november we're having for weekend trip. cant wait to take on a bigger stage on larger grounds. gotta bring out the brutallity.

day after tomorrow is the kelong. cant fucking wait to fish. have been waiting since last week and that craving... ouhh that craving... driving me nuts. its obsession, indulgence, addiction. and best of all, many folks will be there. never been to a kelong before, hope nothing serious happens.hahaha. please dont bring the tsunamis and destroy our stilts. im serious.

anyways, im hoping for a good long holiday. taking day by day, trying to accomplish its fullest. i want to meet up with old friends too. make new friends, write new stuff, improve personallity socially and mentally, become confident. i hope you( whoever is reading this) can accomplish and do what you plan to. its important. makes who you are.

time to switch this brain off from the singa-educa-propaganda.

Last Quote From Braveheart

cant you see it? up there in the skies. its so beautiful.. an explosion of colours. you cant see it? well i can. cause its freedom.FREEEDOMMMM!

its holiday time (for the next 3 months.. only)
no more exams. (except dnt, but, hah)
time for boogey joogey (though i still woke up in the morning thinking i had to study)

anyways, im ultra hungry. time to go to the freemen banquet. cause only free people can go there.

From zero to hero.

Suppa dawg.

been really caught up with studies.exam's on monday. i think i feel prepared.at least, i've been preparing.went dental this morning.the pictures of my teeth were disgusting.fuck you plague.at least its gone now.dentist said i might have to wear braces =S oh wells.after that met mei shan to eat and went back to watch survivor.later on went to study at thomson with nikesh and keith, which actually turned out productive. mmhmm. talked alot and whatnots.got 3 hour tuition tomorrow morning and another session with nikesh and keith and maybe axel.hot damn..

its good seeing old friends.

ayeyayayayaya. cant wait for exams to end. Kelong calling me to fish their waters just when my exams are done. cant wait for Kelong fishing either. whoo.

i bought an acoustic and i shall name her Atropos, for the "woman who cuts life threads" in greek mythology.

HACKRZ ALERT.

WHATSUP I IZ HACKING YOUR BLOG.

I IZ WANTZ YOUS NOW.

VEH BADLY...

POP POP EXPLOSION ACTION REACTION

LUV,

KITTYKAT.

(I love you very very much!)

Inspiration

Just two more weeks.
you can do it.
freedoms round the corner...for the next 3 months that is.
free to do whatever you want.
work, feast, fish, jam, sing, scream, box, speak, pump...


its drawing nearer and nearer... i can taste it.
the flesh of the weak antelope, exams.



sizzle.

Forgiveness

hmmm blogger, entertain me before i cut cha. ya fool. heeheheh.

the weeks almost over, i've done many things except study. not very wise. prelims next week and i havent touched my books?! whats this?!

this blog is more like a place for ideas.

SOILDER

wear your armor soilder,
wear it proud and high,
your serving the country dear,
the war isnt a lie.
ill see you again he said,
even with wounds that'll remain forever
in here, on this solaced bed
in your arms again, with armor on this soilder
why did you lie to me, you promises were left unkept
now im alone here, with pieces left in my grasp
i will come home, i will come home
but here i am still, left alone
they sent you to me with a letter in your hand,
they said they found it on you when you were dead,
carelessly written, but it said
"im sorry, but this is where i end.
i ask a favour, please keep this chain round your hand"
there i lay whats left of you,
under this withering tree
"i hope you'll pull this through,
and never forget me"

Prep talk

I dont feel prepared. i didnt get prepared.
I believe that I can do this.
I dont want to fail.
I will not fail.
I want to be successful.
I do not want to screw up.
I need to do well.
I need to concentrate, focus.
I need to feel confident.
I can fucking do this.
Yes i fucking can.
Its time to jump this hurdle, climb this cliff, reach this milestone.
You have done well to get this far, go on further.
Its time to fucking shine.
Comeon buddy. You and me both will go through this one with colours on our trail.

Theres this thing called fear. it runs through me.

im fucking intoxicated. i am dizzy. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i got nothing to do so im blogging. my eyes are half shut and im typing. my fingers feel like they have a mind of its own. just going on and on and on. i want to feel like this. not a care in the world. feel numb. feel like lskjgdbasfuckingasgjasghaskggoodasgfja. haaaaaaaaaahahahhhahahhahahahahaaaaaaaahaha.

someday, im gonna die, die like we all do. die from old age, or maybe a freak accident. what will become of me? what will i leave behind? how the fuck would i know cause im already dead. fuck this world fuck everything.fuck this, fuck you.

go watch freedom writers.

i shall compose something random

i feel this too, its unbearable
gasoline is all i have
i am a captive, this is my jail
but ill hold my breath, until ill accept death
my neighbours they suffer,
naked with no dignity,
they have no maker
they have no liberty
this is all whats left
of an able bodied man
this breath is what you have left
savour it, everything that you can
theres no escape from this.
this painful kiss
of airbourne disease
is what i am left with
im falling from my knees
they fall with me
they fall with me
aquainted from this chamber
we all die from this gasoline
this is jewish murder
this where we've been
side by side with my neighbour
within these walls.
fall,
fall,
fall.....

Is it time? Is it contemplation time?

I cant seem to find that motivation that i had to push me to do my best.
Where have you gone?

my memory's worsening. i cant even remember much about school this morning.i dont know what date it is, nor can i recall my upcoming plans. SHIT.

i hope this daily blogging will help me in some way for next weeks english N's. i barely even passed for prelims. SHIT.

i want to talk about pride
pride is something that everyone has
pride makes you defiant
pride makes you unwilling to cooperate
pride makes you stand on other peoples heads, not on the ground
pride makes others despise you, but you still hold it high
pride makes you deaf
pride makes you blind

is it hard putting yourself below others? isnt that what we are taught to do? "serve" others?
but how do we serve if we still have our pride on our shoulders?

i think theres a right time and a right place where you can be proud, and when not to be.

everything revolves around wisdom, decisions, knowing whats right and whats wrong, choosing right from wrong.

So its best to know when to hold your head up high, and when to brush off the dirt of other's shoes.

Your friendly neighbourhood......

SPIDERMANN!!!!



See, thats me in orange.
And the other is satan.

Once you pop you cant stop.

Salutations brethren.

i just had my CLB O's prelims. it was like, peeing into a urinal, easy.( but sometimes, when no ones around, i'd like to test my long distance aiming and walk backwards while still peeing into the urinal, now thats quite difficult cause you gotta rush back to the urinal when you're almost done). yeah! first time i saw english words in a chinese paper, primary school didnt even have that. and my whole of paper 2 was MCQ, so you always have that 1/4 chance of getting it right if you arent sure of the question. i used to think that MCQ's had a sequence, but i was wrong.but thank goodness i changed to CLB. besides that, while i was having the best nap i had in a classroom in ages, i had to be awoken by my own fart. its like you know you go to sleep being conscious of farting, then when it actually happens when you're sleeping because your body gets comfortable, you just let go and then your heart starts pumping cause you cant believe that you just had a motorbike fart and the guy next to you looks at you. so i gave him a cheeky smile and giggled to myself like a little girl who perched in her panties.

i like sudden farts. its something everyone can relate to.it brings the world closer together like globalisation, and it makes the world a better place to be in.

school's over in a month, im stoked. got so many things to accomplish.
1. Get a job
2. Learn some self defense skills
3. Start gaming? maybe.
4. Recording? maybe.
5. Bodybuilding. Muscleman 2000
6. Pick up guitar again? maybe. it'll be one of those passing phases again.
7. Play jazz? another passing phase
8. Catch up with friends

that should be about it i think. anyways its time to go to tuition. time to bring out my grenades of knowledge, pull the pin and throw it in the battlefield of social studies and eliminate the opposition, which is the CBD,ALS,ERP,VQS,COE,NHS,LTTE,UN,ASEAN and the KNNBCCB.

Onward brethren!

For the Entrees

hello! i have decided to open up a blog, again. it'll be quite interesting to read my blog after i've stopped using it just like reading my old blog right now. very interesting. indeed.

i've developed a enthusiasm in poetry, but it'll just be a passing thing. just like all the other things i was enthusiastic about and lost interest like in a week or two. uncountable times. but ill never lose my metal interest

i shall update my blog when i can.because i feel uneasy using a computer thats facing the living room, where people can just walk by and look at what im doing. not safe at all know. dont like. queasy. i want to move house. NOW.
speaking of moving house, my family and i went looking at houses today. i cant imagine myself living in a 3 storey house with an attic, with 6235162345 sq feet of room space and the attic possibly a studio.i'd like that really. its my teen house dream. but i just hope father would consider and has the cash. oh wells.

k time to shower. i just realised why i stopped blogging last time. cause i sounded GAY. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA bye.

Has it come yet?

Send down the chariots! Send away the horsemen!
we do not deserve pardoning but give us the glimpse of light
The sun to darkness, and the moon to blood
Pull out your swords! We do not want to see night
Why did my earthly endeavours ask for this?
Put your bodies away and come with Me.
before the arrows blockout the Stars and cover the grounds with defiance
before we can stand and live with acceptance
live boundlessly, leave mortallity
Do we want whats rightfully ours?What is?!
Drop your baggages then you'll know.
Drop your baggages and come with Me.
"Fallen" see but see right through me.
We are walking targets!
We are breathing corpses!
We are walking targets!
We are breathing corpses!

Condemned By Pilate

step away seducer,from your deceiving eyes
and your teeth stained with lies
you are your possesor,confine to change
or the reaper will devour your life.
The few who fight on your side,
the few who has taken your bribes,
fall down with you!
has been killed by you!
as you take your own life.
No closed door shall leave an open window.
No second chances for the blasphemous.
your vile actions will be your failure,
and ill just watch,
watch this over and over again until
everythings flawless and lucid.
When all your venomous words dont hurt anymore,
my soul will be at rest.
His divine mercy has shined down on me.
Like redemption for my sins
when will your strife come to its end?
when will perserverance give in?
1, 2, 3, Strike! i've hit my past down.
Its falling, its falling
You wont recover and i wont feel a thing
Ill repeat this over and over again.